Let's be clear

Good morning! I want to thank everyone who has been emailing me with their comments regarding this blog. This blog was created to promote discussion and it certainly has done that. A lot of people are emailing me their concerns that I am being too hard on myself regarding the content in each days blog. I want to be clear about some things.
The subheading of this blog is "My imperfect walk with my perfect God". This walk of faith that I am on is far from perfect, especially measured up to a perfect God. That being said, my faith in God has never faltered. I have been through some of the darkest times in my life over the last 7 months and at times my faith in Jesus Christ was the only thing I have had to cling to. The peace and joy that come from a relationship with Jesus is unsurpassed by anything else I have ever experienced.....and I have tried a lot of things in my life in the search for peace and joy!
I discussed how great God is in a general sense, now let me get personal. God has given me much more than just peace and joy. He has given me eternal salvation and my faith in that salvation purchased by Christ for me at the cross is NEVER going away!! The love that God showed for me that day amazes me. I was a sinner, now I am a child of the most Holy God. I was lost and He found me. All through my life I ignored God but He wasn't ignoring me. I had my own agenda but He never gave up on His plan for me. He called me, and reached out for me, and called me some more. Looking back at my life I see many, many instances of His clear call to me which went ignored. But He never gave up and eventually in February of 2004 I heard His call and accepted Jesus as my Savior and Lord.
Since then I have had many trials. As I have stated my walk closely resembles the walk of Israel as seen in the Old Testament. When I stray from God and His will, He nudges me in the right direction by reminding me of my need for Him. I nearly lost my family due in part because I was not following His will for me as the spiritual leader of my household. I never lost faith in God though and at the midnight hour when things looked the darkest, my family was given hope. I prayed for Jesus to reach out to someone close to me and pull that person back into a vibrant relationship with Him and when it looked like it would never happen.......it did. There was a time that it looked like I was going to lose my home in this financial meltdown that the world has been going through. I never lost my faith in God and His timing and everything worked out just perfect. At exactly the right moment my home was rescued. A day later and things wouldn't have worked out for me. I thank God for His timing. I have been close to financial ruin recently but God has always provided for me. Money has shown up out of nowhere in almost the exact amount that I have needed. Never too much.....never not enough.....always exactly what I need when I need it.....that's my God!! He has answered countless prayers for me and my brothers and sisters in Christ. I have seen miracles happen. I have seen people given weeks to live survive due to the power and persistence of godly men and women in prayer. I have seen relationships rescued and renewed. Most of all I have seen change in my life. Change for the better. I am a different person today. My anger and addictions no longer have the power over me that they once did. Things that I once stressed over are no longer important to me. I have peace and joy found only in my relationship with Jesus.
I tell you these things to give you hope. Hope in a glorious God who loves His children. Hope in an eternal relationship with Jesus Christ. Hope that I have. I know God loves me and I am secure in my eternal relationship with Jesus. I have a faith that has seen me through a lot of dark times but has also been there in the best of times....like the birth of my son and our continuing relationship as he grows up.
So don't worry about me. The content of this blog is just stuff that is going through my head. Stuff that I want to share. Stuff that I am at times struggling with. Stuff that God and me are wrestling with. It's OK.
God bless!!